my mistakes

because of what i did, i've nearly lost what was precious to me..and this is something i have to deal with..along with the heartache and the fear of losing him completely..but to know that he's stil here for me although feelings have faded is both a comfort and a heartache..a comfort because he still sticks around after all that i've put him through..and a heartache because my mistakes have caused me to lose a big part of him..but to be given a chance to try make it work once more, it's the only thing i can place my hopes on..if only i could realised my mistakes long before yesterday..just so that i wouldn't have hurt him in a way that led us to where we are at this moment..but who is there to blame other than myself? But i guess the harder i try to make it work, the more distant he becomes and the sooner it would fail..and i'm not ready to accept this loss..i had something good for once in my life and i was stupid enuf to ruin things by being insecure and easily affected by the words of others..the worst part is knowing that what's lost may never return again and yet hoping for it to work out or waiting for it to fall apart completely..but at this point, i guess i finally realised what's important to me and only time can tell whether i could be forgiven for my mistakes and be loved again..

i've learnt that love is accepting things for the good of that person even if it hurts you, even if you fight it every once in awhile..when the simplest thing can turn into a lasting memory and knowing that no matter what happens between the two of you he will always be that special someone you hold in your heart for always..It's when you fall in love all over again just thinking abt him and remembering all the memories you have made with him..those memories lasts forever..you sit there thinking abt all the times u were side by side..it's when u can feel their presence when u close your eyes..but when u try to reach for them,you feel them slipping away..