just attended my cousin's wedding today at tropicana..cousin vincent and his pretty wife..met my relatives and it was a 9 course dinner..so yea..i feel awfully fat..the best part of the weddign was..there was no aunties/uncles who went up the stage to sing..instead..they hired proper wedding singers to sing..and somehow the songs they sung tonite kept reminding me of my ex..and the worse part of the wedding was..every1 was asking abt my relationship status n comparing it to my counsins..my mum even asked my cousins to introduce some nice and successful guys to me..i felt like a sad case..and later on..the counsins and uncles tried to get me and my other counsin sis drunk..and we passed their test..tho my cousin sis was completely red and i managed to kept concious and converse properly while being drunk..mum even encouraged me to drink with them..so much help from her..ish..

ramblings

Let's give a round of applause,
for your elaborate performance,
when the curtains rolled up,
so theatrical for the world to see.

Let's give toast,
to the times you made me bled,
when you held a knife to my heart,
twisting it inside and around.

Let's give a smile,
to past memories,
the journey we thought we could have had,
and all that could have been.

Let's give one last cry,
for what we want,
but can never have,
cause we're too fragile.

Let's take a bow,
the show has ended,
just the two of us and no one else watching,
before we take off, heading separate ways..

congrats to my high school friends felix and yen li on your marriage..

http://www.facebook.com/video/?ref=sb#/video/video.php?v=257303377568

When everything you hold with your heart feels like its slipping away from you because of your mistake, what do you do?
Clutch at the straws and try your damnest not to let go of the best you ever had?
Or let go, because you know it deserves better?
I don't know, because maybe its never for us to decide,
like it wasn't for us to decide the path of our life.

Work has been hectic the past 2 weeks..tho i'm ok with the jobs..but i generally dun like the contract..cuz i feel bounded to them since i'm not allowed to leave during my 1 month probation else my salary will all go to the job agency that brought me in..then after my probation, i'm not allowed to leave until the semester ends with 2 months notification..

secondly..i dun see a job prospect in what i'm doin..

third..it's getting boring to me..i know i just started..but i'm teaching a subject i dun really like that much when initially i was offered to do biology as i wanted..now i'm doing chemistry n i hate studying things that i cant get familiar with..worse still when i was asked by the senior lecturer to prep all the lecture slides and tutorial sets for foundation year, lab protocols and chemical list, exam questions and i have to take over the whole O levels batch n plan the syllabus..as well as to work in edu fair and invigilate exams..i feel over-exploited !!

fourth..i'm trap between all the politics going on..like ppl are trying to pull me to their side n go against the other..but i do have colleagues that i can get along with..so it makes things better in a way..

and also..the salary..if they don't review my salary after the probation period then i'll send in a resignation letter by march n work til june..if the pay gets better then i'll stay til end of the year..after all..i took a peek into the documents for other employees while i was working in my senior lecturer's room when i started n i know how much every1 earns..so if ppl are doing something like i'm doing..so why shud i be paid lower than them? therefore..with my salary..i intend to do things at my pace n my wish..at the same time, i'll be careful with what i do..so if u sack me without a proper reason then i'll sue you !! that's why i got some1 to review the whole contract for me to check for loopholes before i signed it..this way i know what to adhere to and how far i can go before crossing the line..

well..other than that i'm pretty satisfied with my job =)