wedding dinner

attended a wedding dinner few weeks ago with my mum..it was my cousin sis' wedding at Time Square hotel..lots of relatives there but i have not much clue on how to acknowledge them or how was i related to them in the first place..the food prep by the hotel was only so so..edible but didn't have that ummph factor..and absolutely hated the way the hotel staff diluted the brandy's and whisky's..felt as if i was drinking cold water with slight alcohol taste instead..too bad grandma sat on another table..getting worried abt her lately..back getting really hunched, having bad joint aches around the legs, could barely walk and had to be pushed around with a wheelchair..and lately her hands are shaking non stop..pray that it would not be the onset of Parkinsons'..sort of degenerating really fast of all a sudden..which means that time is prolly running out..but come to think of it..she's quite old already..this year she would probably be around 85 yrs old..i wonder if i can ever live that long..





grandma and her younger sis..


mum, me, cousins..


mama and me..

words of wisdom from a friend..

1. 遇到你真心愛的人時, 要努力爭取與他相处下去..因為当他離去時,一切都來不及了..
2. 遇到可相信的朋友時, 要好好和他相处..因為在人的一生中, 能遇到的知己不多..
3. 遇到人生中的貴人時, 要記得好好感激..因為他是你人生的轉折点..
4. 遇到曾經愛過的人時, 記得微笑向他感激..因為是他让你更懂愛的人..
5. 遇到曾經恨過的人時, 要微笑向他打招呼..因為他让你更堅強..
6. 遇到背叛你的人時, 跟他好好聊一聊..因為若不是他,你今天不會懂這世界..
7. 遇到曾經偷偷喜歡過的人,要祝他幸福..因為你喜歡他時,不是希望他幸福快樂吗?
8. 遇到匆匆離開你人生的人時, 要謝謝他走過你的人生..因為他是你精采回億的一部份..
9. 遇到曾經和你有誤會的人時, 要趁現在解清誤會..因為你可能只有這一次機會解釋清楚..
10. 遇到現在和相伴一生的人,要百分百感謝他愛你..因為你們現在都得到幸福和真愛..

quite some time ago..i've received a text msg from a friend that i've found quite meaningful..but being unfamiliar in typing in mandarin..this post took me about *ahem* an hour plus to type it out in mandarin..maybe i should try to translate it to english..but some words are quite difficult to be translated..even the google translate tool had it all messed up..believe me..i've tried to copy and paste the whole text into the translator and got a very amusing translation..the funniest part is that, when they can't translate some words, they will just place the mandarin words back into the translated text..even when they translate it, the way they arrange the text and the words they used are nonsense..

my version of translation may end up all weird and funny too..but i'll give it a try since i'm bored..so here goes:

1. when you meet someone you love, work hard and strive to make it work..for when he leaves, it would be too late..
2. when you encounter someone you can trust, appreciate and get along with them..for we would only meet few trustworthy people in one's lifetime..
3. when you encounter a savior/benefactor at some point of your life, always be thankful to them..for they are your life's turning point..
4. when you meet the person you used to love, smile and thank them..for they were the ones who taught you how to love..
5. when you meet someone you used to hate, smile and greet them..for they were the ones who made you tougher..
6. when you meet someone who has betrayed you in the past, have a good chat with them..for they are the ones who taught you more about the world..
7. when you meet the person you used to have a crush on, wish them happiness..for that was what you would have wanted for them when you liked them before..
8. when you meet the person who wanted out from your life in the past, thank them for being a part of your life..for they could have contributed an interesting part to your memories..
9. when you meet someone you've had a misunderstanding with before, take the chance to apprehend the issue..for it could be the only chance you have to explain..
10. when you encounter your current companion, be grateful that they love you..for they are the ones who made you happy and loved..

well..maybe my translation sucked too..but i guess it sort of helped me to understand that piece of msg better..

lost..

Over the past week, i've been feeling so trapped and lost at the same time..am wondering why do i keep remembering some things that still bothers me alot..and why do i keep reading thru those words that could make me feel sad and afraid..why does that person keeps saying things to raise doutbs in me and refuse to leave me alone..being mentally stressed is way more tiring than being physically tired from work..and i hate that painful feeling i get inside me that makes it hard for me to breathe..so i guess i have to ask myself: what do i want and is it worth it? seems like a simple question but it's not easy to think abt it..but i guess the answer lies somewhere in me subconciously and i would have to search for it..i just hope i can find it before it gets too suffocating..

something to remember..

Few days ago, i finally met up with some friends from high school. Planned it on Fri night itself with Kian How thru msn and then the next morning i had to call up the others.. it was quite last minute, esp when Kian How had to leave on Sun morning..So i guess we had to meet before he goes back to the States and we'll not see him for a few more yrs (he said he won't be back for 5-10 yrs)..But it's understandable, esp when he has to work and pay for his own air tickets etc..and also, it's better to work over there than over here since he's doing music synthesis and film scoring (..imagine him making music for local production like cicakman 2..definitely not a good prospect to work in that industry in Bolehland huh? )..Who knows, in a few yrs time we might get to watch a hollywood movie and see his name on the credits =) speaking of work, he's working for a video game company to compose music for them..pretty cool huh?

Anyways..other than Kian How, i managed to called up Jason to join us..This boy..sigh..Haven't met him for so many yrs though we were just staying abt 5-10 minutes apart from each other..He thought that i went overseas and i thought he went overseas =.=" I do remember the times in high school when we were close and he used to bully and play with my sis alot..i do not remember who bullied who though..Probably my sis being the one to bully him, knowing her..

Initially, i thought this last minute thing would fail since Fendi said he had sth to do with his mum that night..But i was so glad when he called me up in the evening and said he'll be able to make it =) That's when we all finally decided to meet at William's around 9.30pm..Around 8.30pm, it was drizzling at Ming Tien at Taman Megah..i started getting disappointed since i thought i would not be able to meet them if it rained heavier..Come to think abt it, i've ordered food at Ming Tien's but i forgot to cancel and left the place =/ should i feel bad abt it? But i prefer to think that the next customer is lucky to have his food earlier since i left..thank goodness the rain stopped after awhile and i manage to get myself over to Jin Fong's hse by 9.30pm and walked over to William's..see how punctual i am? compared to the guys who were all an hour late =.=" What has the world come to, now that it's guys who are showing up later than girls?? I nearly finished my drink by the time they showed up..ooohh..i've had that yummy ice blended ribena with lychee drink =P ordered the tiny one though..Fendi ordered the same drink in super large size that cost abt rm7..but i guess it's worth that price seeing how huge it was..But the garlic bread failed since it was burned and i've had better elsewhere (even at home)..While we were waiting for the guys, i finally understood why Jason said he doesn't want to go to smelly Williams'..I was there smelling the longkang the whole time, esp when it was windy and the wind carries the stench along with it..

It was really nice to meet them and gossip abt things..esp abt things that happen overseas..Both Jin Fong and Kian How were sharing stories abt their coincidental meetings with celebrities like Mel Gibson (in a Malaysian restaurant at Boston's chinatown), Ian McKellan (who???? *shrugs shoulder*), Jason Mraz, Simon Cowell, Kate Winslet etc..Lucky them for meeting those ppl in person in London and US..At one point they were trying to compare racism in the States and London..Apparently, Kian How said that the blacks were very racist over there while the whites were very friendly..and Jin Fong said that the blacks were very friendly in London compared to the angmo's..go figure..But i found it amusing when Kian How said some black kids pointed at him and called him chopsticks, fortune cookies and noodles on different occasions..typical racist stereotyping for asians..But hey, if it happened to me then i would be darn pissed like he was..It was even more amusing when he said that he got molested by a gay..at a bus stop..apparently the gay hit on him with small talks and stuff but he was too dense to realize it (even when the gay got physically closer and closer to him as the conversation proceeded)..and of all a sudden, he heard these words "you're beautiful" followed by a hand that grabbed his crotch area..the funniest part that got us LOL was that he was stunned for 10 secs..10 long secs..i wonder how he can be stunned for so long before telling the guy that he's not what they guy thinks and got onto the 1st bus that arrived..only to realize awhile later that he ended up on the wrong bus just to run away from that guy..

And there we were..gossiping abt anything and everything at a mamak stall..But among the things i got to know thru them, what shocked me the most was the death of a former classmate in form 1 and 2..who used to be my dance partner for a ballroom dance long ago..apparently he died from a seizure 2 months ago..am still wondering abt the cause of seizure and death..but may he RIP..It's always shocking to find out abt deaths of ppl u know..it was the same when i heard abt Seng Heng's fatal car crash on a rainy night right around a corner where he crashed into a tree on his way home (the irony was that his hse was just around 100m away), and also Jeffrey's accident at LDP when he crashed into a construction site and killing 2 workers instantly..It makes me think abt how fragile life can be..just one minute they were alive and healthy, and the next moment they're gone just like that..

Thinking abt these makes me depressed..sigh..

Pictures of us: Kian How (the macho guy), Fendi (the handsome Pakistani), Jason (the poser/ the chef?), Jin Fong (a lawyer at the age of 22) and me..

Random thoughts

I was watching KBS world and just so happen there was sort of a documentary program about the touching life stories of various disabled people in Korea..When i watched that earlier on, it was showing a documentary of the life of Lee Soyeong..a korean lady who was born with defective cornea and been nearly blind her whole life that she has to wear magnifying glasses and yet still have a very weak vision..But thank god she was blessed with her talents in music, being able to learn piano playing and play by ear since the age of 3, and has been composing music since she was in elementary school..She relies on her mother to bring her around and be her eyesight and she has a 3rd stage mentally disabled sister..It was really sad to hear about her stories, especially the part where she was kicked by a man because she was blind and look abnormal compared to normal ppl..seriously, how could anyone be that mean to a disabled person? i don't get it at all..But sadly, after an eye checkup she found out that she's currently losing her only eyesight due to the progress of glaucoma that has already happened on her other eye some time ago..There are many more people out there who are unfortunate in life and it's really sad that they have to go through so much difficulties and sadness in their lives, while others are so blessed and tend to take things for granted..Cases like these are always shown in the newspapers, tv and everywhere..esp nowadays with all the poverty, starvation, war and calamities..And yet, people can still be so ignorant and selfish..

How i started my new year..

* Started the year of 2009 spending time with him at the curve..watched bedtime stories with Adam Sandler and Keri Russell in it..also with an animated guinea pig with horribly large eyes and could do silly things..rate it at a 6/10 overall cuz i wasn't impressed with the plot..but it was entertaining and some parts were quite funny..

* got myself addicted to juice work's lychee cooler (a blend of watermelon slices, lychee and sorbet -> ice chunks? that was what i saw the staff adding into the blender)..it's a sweet and refreshing drink..perfectly satisfying and thirst quenching on a hot day..

* bought myself 2 bottles of body mist from body shop..cassis rose and neroli jasmin..both on a 20% sale..the thing i like abt body mist is that it is not as strong as edt or perfume oil..i nvr liked strong scents that can be too everwhelming til i can get a headache after smelling it awhile..I couldn't decide between these two scents..and it was the last day of Body shop's new year sale at that time..so i guess in this case..when in doubt, buy both?
i find it quite worth the price and i like the scent..hence no regrets =)

Happy New Year 2009 !!

Started the year of 2009 being at my rooftop balcony seeing the fireworks from all directions..the view was amazing since i could see fireworks from KL, subang/sunway, curve/1u and several other locations all at one place..my dogs were laying low on the ground and hiding away from open spaces since they were terrified of the lights and sounds..and later on, popped open a bottle of red wine bought few years back from aussie and enjoyed the rest of the time watching pirates of the carribean..the 3rd movie -> at world's end..the ending does make me wonder though..if Will Turner turned into an immortal captain for the flying dutchman (whatever it's called ~.~) and could only set foot on land once in 10 years, while his beautiful wife stays ashore waiting for him..so then does it mean that they could only see each other for 2-3 times (and have all the fun they can for that one day) before she turns into an old woman and dies sooner or later (since she's human..)? Hmm..i'm probably thinking too much over a movie..there can't always be perfect happy endings right..btw..Calypso seemed a little useless as a goddess who seem so vengeful and bitter about being bound into a human body, she just disappeared after being unbound and turned into a giant..so much for me anticipating to see what sort of revenge she would carry out and which side will she be on =.="

I sound pretty much like a person with no life huh? no social life in particular..esp when i'm so free to blog here when ppl are all out celebrating..but my parents were right that it would be better to stay home in comfort instead of being stuck in traffic jams or sweating with a whole crowd of people for the countdown..not to mention the difficulties in finding a parking space at those locations..

well..maybe next year i would throw a party and invite some friends over to celebrate it together..bbq, pot luck, ordering food or mum's home cook food..whichever..will think of it in about 12 months time..that way it would be more fun and less lonely *winks*
speaking of lonely, i miss my beloved the most at this very moment..and every moment that he's not here with me..