yes..i am a serious person..

Your Latte Says You Are Very Serious

When it comes to what you like, you have your own unique tastes. And people don't really understand them. You are a very serious person. You don't have time for silly antics. Intense and energetic, you aren't completely happy unless you are bouncing off the walls. You're addicted to caffeine. There's no denying it. You are responsible, mature, and truly an adult. You're occasionally playful, but you find it hard to be carefree. You are honest and genuine, but you are never tactless.

What Does Your Latte Say About You?

Listening to Kate Winslet's song "What If"..the wistful song makes me think of a lot of what-ifs..It's not uncommon for many to think of that, to stop and reflect about how life would have been if we have taken different roads..I know it's good to live life without regrets, but at times it's good to be reflective of how life offers so much possibilities..

random quiz

Your Heart Takes Love Lightly

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

confused

My mind is all over the place..
it's not in one place, it's confusing and rather jumbled-up..I can't get somethings out of my mind, can't release the hold of thoughts have on me..Even as I sit here typing, i realize my brain is all confusing and not working properly..
But how do I use my time to escape from these messed-up thoughts???
Work,work,work..I am going to work my way to death one day I tell you..I feel like a robot sometimes, just working and channeling myself into work to forget many things..
But it's the wrong method..I know that now..*sigh*
Took me long enough..I always run away from my problems..I realize that now..I never face them, just run and avoid thinking about them until disaster strikes..It's rather stupid and careless..but..

there's someone out there..

..who looks like me?

I had it several times before in my life..the first time was way back in primary school when my friend told me excitedly that she knows a junior who looks like me and asked me if i was in any way related to her..Then in high school, there I was randomly having my lunch at a restaurant, when the uncle of the shop came up to me and said i looked like someone he knew..a niece or something..couldn't really recall the conversation..and then in school, i was told by a classmate that i looked awfully much like one of the actress in a HK tvb drama called 风云..not the movie..

when i was in uni..a few girls in my biochem lab previously told me that the girl in desperate housewives who acted as Tom and Lynette's daughter/step-daughter "Kayla" looked like me..but..i really don't think that Rachel Fox look like me or i look like her vice versa..google up her picture n u'll know what i mean..

and the most recent one..i was at watson's paying at the counter when a girl poke me from the side and when i turned to look at her..apparently..she recognized the wrong person and said that i looked like a friend of hers..

there were few other awkward incidences like these as well..
do i really have such a common face? there goes the feeling of being unique as an individual or special..i suddenly feel..common..

a spur-of-the-moment piece

Hey distant lover,
It's been so long since I last saw you..
Are you doing okay?
It's been awhile since I last held you..
Are you still the same?
Hey distant lover,
Are you looking at the sky right now?
I can see it too..
the same blue sky above me and you..
Its getting dark soon where you are,
It'll get dark where I am too..
But even if a star passes by again tonight,
It won't be the same without you..
Hey distant lover,
We'll be meeting soon,
Perhaps somewhere under the moon..
Will you smile when you see me?
Will you laugh and start to tease me?
A promise was made not long ago,
With memories worth more than gold,
And a dream became true,
For the girl who fell in love with you.
Hey distant lover,
My distant lover..
I'll be waiting here for you.

just a dream

found this song quite touching and sad..brought me to tears at some point..maybe i'm just too much of a softie to find a song touching..

9/7/2009

• had late dinner with former college friends at Yuen's steamboat..supposed to meet there at 8pm..but CL was still rushing her work in the office..so i went with Lyn 1st and we reached there around 8.30pm..parking was a slight issue n we ended up parking somewhere that was considerably dark..but at least there was 2 of us..Andrew was the lucky one who got a parking right opposite Yuen..ahem..thanks to us who pointed it out to him else he would have missed it..
• got a table at around 9pm..n CL came a short while later..wanted to try the infamous chicken wings..but those ppl *rolled eyes* were queing for it even before it was replenished..mint ice cream didnt taste like mint at all..another disappointment..
• but seriously, i don't get why everyone is so crazy abt yuen's..it's just like any other normal steamboat places..and it's overpriced..there are similar places in kepong and other places that charge a much lower price, say, ard rm13/head..overall..other than the price and the crowd..the food is only so so..the place looked unkempt..and it was hot cuz we were allocated to a table near the corners where the fan could not reach..am not sure if there was any aircond at all cuz i didnt feel it..ppl were sweating like mad everywhere..
• so i guess for rm20++/head..i would rather go for the new fully air-conditioned steamboat buffet place in kepong..it's a conveyor belt steamboat restaurant..nice concept eh..
• food aside, catching up with old friends was the best part..esp with Andrew and CL since i seldom see them around..

10/7/2009

• went pyramid with Andrew n CL..CL's b'day today ^^ so we sort of had cake at zen..erm..considered a cake gua..tho it was in a glass..
• didnt get to watch public enemies cuz of the timing and the cinema was full even tho we were 10 minutes late for that movie..
• saw David Lim at tgv also trying to decide on what movie to watch cuz of the odd timing..movies were either 2pm++ or 6pm++..and we were stuck in between those times..

random rants

someone once told me that i was a strange and stubborn individualist..hmm..so what if i'm that type of person?

first of all, i do not believe in conformity..why shud i conform to what others believe in or what others do just to fit in or be "normal"..besides, what and who defines how normal a person can be is quite subjective.."normal" is interpreted by the majority who conformed to be "similar" to each other in what they do or behave..and there goes the trend of being normal or so-called cool (which i think it's ridiculous)..seriously..if u're mentally mature enough (regardless of age..cuz i know ppl in their 20s still uses that word =.=) then you wouldn't even bother using the word "cool" to describe a thing or a person..when i was younger and had no sense of individuality, i stupidly attempted to conform just to have more things in common with "normal" ppl so that they would accept me as i presented myself..but being that way and after years of tolerating the loss of individuality and my own ideas, i just don't want to continue being part of the crowd or to fit in..trust me, the "cool" ppl can actually end up being the lamest ppl that u've ever seen in ur life based on what they say or do..you would only realise that when u look back after 20 to 30 years in the future..i'm amused with how ppl in universities and colleges tend to put in so much effort just to fit in to groups and all..of course i wouldn't say it right into their faces, but they look like dogs following their "masters" around..the way they look up to their friends and follow all their ideas completely reminds me of those puppies..only puppies are cute in that sense..don't blame me for using that word, there's even a chinese term to describe ppl like that..ask your friends if you have no clue what is it..but why do ppl allow peer pressure to make them do stupid things in the 1st place? and worst still when ppl decide that they "like" something just because others do..such as religion, clubbing, alcohol and drugs ingestion, shopping for branded stuff, smoking, casual sex and all..the funniest ones that seem to happen alot would be following their friends to take a certain course or which university to attend (seriously..u would let your frens decide ur future for u huh?) and also those who allow ppl to preach them into following a certain religion just because their frens are doing so..point is, why do ppl allow others to help them decide what they want in life and what they should do or like just to fit in? don't you ppl have your own sense and idea of what u want and like in the 1st place? and they said that ppl are mature enough to think at the age limits of 16, 18 or 21 depending on which countries they are from, which is why they set the age limits at that..yeah right..it's so true how mature ppl can be once they hit the age limits =.= the saddest ppl are the ones who subconsciously conforms and do not realize it and still insist that they are non-conformists..

sometimes learning from other ppl's experiences tend to help u learn abt urself..i guess i've been analyzing other ppl's life too much to a point where i don't see why i should do the things they do based on the outcomes shown..and at some point, i actually find it more comfortable to just do or think what i want to think even when i know ppl might dislike me for that..deceiving others is one thing..but hey..at least i'm not deceiving myself..i may compromise and tolerate but i would not conform..i would not allow myself to be restricted by other ppl's ideas and words..there's more to life than just a group of ppl that others try to fit into..we should not restrict our thinking and be manipulated to think the way other ppl thinks..just because you're different doesn't mean that u can't be friends with people with different interests and beliefs..i know that cuz i have friends with all sorts of different interest and ideas and yet we could still sit down for hours to gossip with all the variety of ideas and topics given..surely at times our conversation would run dry, but we still enjoy spending time with each other and esp with good food, movies, entertainments and all to glue us together despite our differences..

updates

2/7/09

• had a movie marathon with Carolyn today..queued for abt 30 minutes or longer at mid valley's gsc..it was a thursday afternoon and i wonder why are they so many ppl..thank goodness it's not school holiday + colleges/uni's sem break..kanasai like that..but at least my student card made it worthwhile =) cheap wei..onli rm14 for 2 movies..but of course..in cineleisure i'll be able to watch 2 movies for rm12..but still..student price is really worth it..
• snuck my mcd's lunch into the cinema..hehe..late lunch but satisfying..i somehow like to sneak outside food into the cinema..shared some pop corn with lyn as well..i rarely eat pop corns..even if i do..i tend to prefer the "lite and sweet"..tried the salty one last time but it was quite tasteless..imagine eating paper..i know my salt n sugar intake is higher than normal okay >.<
• ice age 3 was very funny..must watch for those who have not watch it =)
• krispy kreme was only okay to me..i was expecting way too much based on reviews by other ppl before it was opened in Malaysia..and therefore i find it a little disappointing..the choices were limited..i wonder if it's just the krispy kreme in malaysia that i find disappointing..and i tried the cappuccino kreme..not bad but i couldnt finish one doughnut cuz it was too sweet and therefore sickening after a few bites..lyn had hershey's cookies and cream..i think it was sweeter than the one i had..i'm not sure if it's just me that found it too sweet..but i do admit that i have a limited tolerance towards sweet food..i get sick of sweet food fast..really fast..as fast as after taking a few bites..but when it comes to savoury food..i can eat alooottt..so i guess the whole "girls-have-a-separate-stomach-for-sweet-food" thing doesnt apply to me..perhaps i have a separate stomach for sweet food, but if it's so then that must be one hell of a small stomach for sweet food while they swapped the larger one for the amount of savoury food i can take..or maybe it's psychological..i always feel guilty after eating too much sweet stuff..
• thanks lyn for the sushi supper..jap food ftw !! everywhere i go, i crave jap food..i can take jap food everyday..but in limited amounts..otherwise the guilt comes in and spoils the satisfaction of having a good meal..oh..lyn just realised that i do eat raw meat..just that i avoid ordering salmon cuz i hate raw fish with soft texture like that..i prefer tuna, swordfish or any fish with a tougher texture as tho they were cooked..even when i take raw meat..i tend to cover the fishy smell with lots of wasabi..i love wasabi btw..can nvr just have sushi without wasabi..while having sushi, we were talking abt everything n everyone..and at some point i saw Dr. Anne with her bf/husband..right after we talked abt her..something related with lyn's honours project under her..so initially i thought i was just seeing things til i realised that it was that coincidental..
• aiyor..mid valley has cat and dog exhibition on 3-5th july leh..we went a day earlier and couldnt go see the exhibition pulak..wth >.<

3/7/09

• my pPAL7 vector arrived!! stupid tho..it came right before 5pm..i waited the whole day anxiously just for it >.<>
• i think i'm dehydrating..been feeling hot and weak..and my lips are always dry even when i keep drinking water..maybe my body isn't properly absorbing the water i'm drinking..hope i won't suddenly pengsan in the middle of nowhere tmr..
• right now..i crave spicy food..i crave indian food..i crave the stadium fish head curry in kl..that is the best fish head curry i've ever had..tho i don't eat fish head (the only part of a fish i eat would be the part around the tail..not the head and definitely not the belly area with soft fatty flesh)..but the curry is really good..and the side dishes of fried fish eggs (drooling all over my keyboard now >.<) and fried chicken and also papadum to go along with the curry and rice..i crave spicy food tho i have a slight sore throat..but i think the sore throat is probably cuz i laughed too hard watching ice age 3 and gossiped too much..

the not-so-unconditional love

Love and the whole merry-go-round somehow doesn't really makes sense.
In summary, unconditional love is love at its purest form, where your heart feels like its so full and its just ready to give everything in the world for one person.

A mother's love is one example..When a mother loves a child,its unconditional..Sure, parents are not perfect and once in awhile they expect something from you in exchange for their love (not so unconditional anymore)..So let's give it a new name..It's pure love then..Pure, real love.

I'm not saying other forms of love is not pure. But this is love at its purest form..Loving something or someone without much reasons and not expecting much in return..

Pure love is when you still love that person despite all their flaws and mistakes..
Pure love is when all you want to be is by their side..
Pure love is when you see the person and all you feel is warmth..Like a sip of hot chocolate on a cold rainy day..

Pure love is when you're by their side, the sun is always shining in your radiant smile, and the stars sparkle in your eyes with happiness..

Pure love is when the person walks off to venture on a different path, you hide your tears and despair because all you want to do is ensure they know they have your support..

Pure love is when you know there is a bond between you two that will last forever, a red string (like in the Chinese beliefs) that binds the both of you together..

what i've been listening to on repeats these days

I've been listening to songs by Lenka and Bonnie Mckee lately on repeat..somehow i like songs that are not played on the radio or anywhere i go like some annoying ones..but the ones from Bonnie Mckee is super hard to find..my dumb downloads keep getting stalled after some time..kanasai..Lenka has a soft pure voice that can be quite soothing..but then again, my taste in music is quite different than those of the normal ppl..what i like may not be what others would like..here are a few of her songs that i like =)