Sunday, June 28, 2009

my 23rd year on earth..

I'm officially 23..hmm..somehow i feel so much older than that..for awhile i really thought i was supposed to be 24 this yr..i don't know why i lost track of my own age..not that i've been in this world for that long rite..while being confused, my boyfie confused me further by convincing me that my age was 24 this yr..followed by a miscalculation leading me to believe that i'm 24 for a few hours til i started calculating with my fingers again and asking my family members of my age >.< overall i've had one of the best b'days..not much of celebrating..but rather, spending time with my guy before he goes back home for 3 weeks was how i wanted to spend my day..he made my day special..thanks a bunch honey =) lately i've not been a good friend since i was always busy and not keeping in touch much with my friends..i'm so sorry guys..i do feel terribly guilty over it..and so i expected a quiet b'day this yr but being spammed by all the b'day messages on msn, fb and my hp from the start of 12am til the end of my b'day at 11.58pm the next day was awfully touching..Just when i thought it was over, i've received 2 bouquet of roses the next morn..



a pretty mixed bouquet from Xander, John, Marcus and Maxine..







this was from Wai Kien and Hui Teng..



and then..later that day, i've received a courier package from Melbourne with another rose inside..it was a soap carved red rose from lux soap..Thanks alot Kevin..at least this is one rose that will never wilt ^o^













Aww..aren't they precious? i love them so much..thanks a bunch guys =D

Monday, June 22, 2009

i liked the way i was before

i want to be the person i used to be some time ago before things changed me..capable of loving, trusting and being happy..capable of being independent and self-sufficient..and perhaps being able to care at an appropriate point..i liked who i was at that time..the current me seems a little hard to handle and tired of everything around me..the current me needs to stop being insecure and vulnerable..i have to learn to take things as they are and return a reciprocal treatment or response..the current me needs to be smarter in dealing with situations..etc etc etc..i'm in need of a change in my life and it shall start with changing who i am..i want to be the girl i used to be and the girl i used to like being..although she might be distant and cold, but being that way helps me take care of myself emotionally..growing older by a year and after going through rough patches from time to time shud make me a tougher person both on the inside and the outside, and be more mature at my age..i hope..

drama weekend

Currently watching a korean drama titled "Yoo Hee, the witch" or "witch amusement" that was shown on 8tv..but couldn't cope with the long wait so i've watched it from mysoju.com in 3 days..and also..i hated the translated version on 8tv with dumb subtitles..

i liked the cast, not just coz the guys were sooo good looking..but mainly coz i've liked them from highly rated dramas that i've watched some time ago..i can't take my eyes off Dennis Oh (in full: Dennis Joseph O'Neil) who acted as the French chef in the drama..He's an american-korean, this explains a whole damn lot to how good looking he is..just like Daniel Henney (the korean-american hunk who acted in My name's Kim Sam Soon and X-men origins: Wolverine..and also seducing Mr. Perfect and a whole lot of commercial clips)..both of them are tall and so darn good looking, unlike the typical korean pretty boy looks (beh tahan those sissy looks >.<)..the best part is the way they speak perfect english..although Daniel Henney can't speak korean at all, while Dennis struggles with acting in korean..but when u're looking at him, u'll mostly focus on his looks and not the way he speaks korean with a hint of american slang..but slangs make these men sexy, no? the other casts were familiar faces from other korean dramas as well..Han Ga In (i've seen her before in terms of endearment) was the lead girl in "Yoo hee, the witch".."terms of endearment" was another sad drama that depicts the harsh reality of today and reminds us of the sacred meaning of a marriage and the importance of family..it showed how a woman's spouse cheated on her causing her to cheat as well and it ended up with her divorcing him after he found out about her relationship with her first love..and a woman who lived with her bf before marriage and he ends up leaving her (typical..since he was popular with females ever since she met him)..but it's sad to see how much effort she puts into that useless bum and ended up being devastated..but as expected, things ended up good with her first love showing up in her life again..somehow korean dramas seem to like to recycle first loves..Then there was Jae Hee in Yoo Hee the witch as well..he's the guy from "kwae-geol Chun-Hyang"..his actions and facial expressions are always amusing and comedic..as expected from the moment he met yoo hee in the drama, they fell in love after a darn long time (how slow they are in realising their feelings for each other after a million times of feeling jealous when the other person dated other ppl)..but he was such a sweet guy in the drama that u'll feel sad for him whenever u see him get disappointed by her..And then, there was the guy who acted in "Goong" --> Kim Jeong Hoon, a pretty boy with sad eyes and a pained expressions in both drama roles..

i liked the ost for this drama..esp after knowing the lyric translation then it seems quite fitting for Yoo Hee's role..although there were 2 versions for the same song..a sad one and a upbeat one..







Saturday, June 20, 2009

our night out to KL for a change

Of all a sudden, someone i've not talked to for a very long time just called me up and asked me and my frens for a drink..so what the heck, i called up a few frens and we went to Luna bar for the 1st time..and also my 1st time drinking cocktails..i know..damn jakun rite..i rarely go down to kl city center for the matter since i prefer places like mont kiara or sri hartamas..and even bangsar..and i rarely drink cocktails since people i go out with tend to drink hard liquor more..so there we were at 9pm, it was a nice restaurant to dine at with yummy pizzas (square thin crusted ones..reminds me of those at flem's cafe in pyramid last time..) and a pretty breathtaking sky view on the 34th floor (a nice view of KL tower and KLCC on different sides)..the main floor of Luna has a swimming pool and there are glass dining cubicles giving diners a 270 degrees view of the city, while the upper deck showed an even better view but it's only open after 10pm for some unknown reasons..and the upper deck had limited bar stools..so it's good that my friend was given the priority since she knew the manager there..the view itself is worth the visit..the italian pizza (with pepperoni and grilled mushroom and mozarella cheese toppins..) was great..the salmon pizza and cheese pizza was decent..

overall it was a very nice place to hang out with friends before 10pm..good pizzas, nice city view, comfy..it doesnt matter if conversation runs dry since we're relaxing that way..it's a restaurant bar before 10pm and after that it changes into a clubbing atmosphere..but the good thing is, diners do not have to pay a cover charge while clubbers have to..there was a wide range of cocktails and mocktails there..honestly..i tot that long island iced tea was a non-alcoholic tea drink coz of the name..and also the long beach iced tea..and so, i sipped a little and it was sweet, fruity and i tot there was a hint of alcohol in it..so what the heck rite, i ordered 2 of each since it was too yummy to stop drinking..until it hit me and i started feeling funny esp when i stood up n couldnt feel my legs..that's when i realised that those 2 drinks were really strong..the best part was that my mind's still sharp and clear tho my limbs were uncontrollable..my fren suggested for me to try an even stronger one, the "zombie"..it was another fruity alcoholic drink with a few different rums, sugar syrup, citrus taste..and then he suggested another one, the "irish car bomb" that was a mix of whiskey with irish cream or the bartender said something about whiskey + Bailey's + guinness..he told us to chug it down the moment it starts to foam else it will start to curdle..it tasted abit like choc milk..yummy..so i had another one..apparently this was stronger than the other 3 drinks i had earlier..that's when i sat down and stoned for half an hour til i felt better..and then..my frens asked the bartender for an even stronger one..now this one had a strange name --> "adios mother fucker" (=.=")..i think i saw the bartender pouring in some sprite or 7up, with vodka, rum, tequila, gin, sour mix and something called blue curacao (i have no idea at all what is it but that's was labelled on the bottle i saw)..apparently the soft drink's carbonation enhances the effect..after that drink, we were near k.o..it was just 12 that time..so imagine what a bunch of alcoholics we were to drink so much within 3 hours..i wonder how bad is the extent of my brain damage on that nite itself..hmm..but at least i like the treatment we got there since we managed to get pizzas and drinks that were on the house cuz of my frens and the bartender..otherwise i would be too cheapskate to go to a place like this..

Thursday, June 18, 2009

here and now

"Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing people change.."


Memories live only in the single moment from which they are born.
We cannot relive the moments in a memory.
We can only remember we once had them.
Which is why I am afraid..
I am afraid of receiving good things because someday i will lose them.
I am afraid of living good times because i will thereafter miss them.
I am afraid of happy moments because the sad ones last much longer.
I am afraid that it would hurt me so deeply til i can no longer find the courage to be strong and go through it.
Perhaps someday, a dream will come true
And prayers will be answered,
With all our wishes granted,
And someday, one day,
Good things will stay,
With me, with you..

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

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"If the people we love can no longer be with us..the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them."
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Just finished watching 5 Centimeters per Second by Makoto Shinkai..


For anime fans..please download..
For romance film suckers..please download..
For those who have been distanced..please download..




Because..

..It made me cry..

How many of us have lost precious moments due to distance?
How many of us have lost precious relationships due to circumstances?
Nothing really lasts forever..


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Theme Song for the animation was, "One more time, one more chance"
Written and Performed by: Masayoshi Yamazaki

==============================Lyrics==============================
How much more do I have to lose, before my heart is forgiven?
How many more pains do I have to suffer, to meet you once again?
One more time, oh seasons, fade not
One more time, when we were messing around
Whenever we disagreed, I would always give in first
Your selfish nature made me love you even more
One more chance, the memories restrain my steps
One more chance, I cannot choose my next destination
I'm always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere
On the opposite platform, in the windows along the lane
Even though I know you couldn't be at such a place
If my wish were to come true, I would be at your side right away
There would be nothing I couldn't do
I would put everything on the line and hold you tight
If I just wanted to avoid loneliness, anybody would have been enough.
Because the night looks like the stars will fall, I cannot lie to myself.
One more time, oh seasons, fade not.
One more time, when we were messing around
I'm always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere
At a street crossing, in the midst of dreams
Even though I know you couldn't be at such a place
If a miracle were to happen here, I would show you right away
The new morning, who I'll be from now on
And the words I never said: "I love you."
The memories of summer are revolving
The throbbing which suddenly disappeared
I'm always searching, for your figure to appear somewhere
At dawn on the streets, at Sakuragi-cho
Even though I know you couldn't be at such a place
If my wish were to come true, I would be at your side right away
There would be nothing I couldn't do
I would put everything on the line and hold you tight
I'm always searching, for fragments of you to appear somewhere
At a traveller's store, in the corner of newspaper,
Even though I know you couldn't be at such a place
If a miracle were to happen here, I would show you right away
The new morning, who I'll be from now on
And the words I never said: "I love you."
I always end up looking for your smile, to appear somewhere
At the railroad crossing, waiting for the express to pass
Even though I know you couldn't be at such a place
If our lives could be repeated, I would be at your side every time
I would want nothing else
Besides you, nothing else matters

Thursday, June 11, 2009

if you love someone..

Read this from somewhere and i find it interesting..


THE ORIGINAL VERSION


If you love someone, Set him free...
If he comes back, he's yours,
If he doesn't, it was never meant to be....

THE NEW VERSIONS:

The Pessimist:
If you love someone, Set him free ...
If he ever comes back, he's yours,
If he doesn't, as expected, he never was.
Whatever gave you the idea that he would
anyway?

The Optimist:
If you love someone, Set him free ...
Don't worry, he'll come back.

The Suspicious:
If you love someone, Set him free ...
If he ever comes back, ask him why.

The Impatient:
If you love someone, Set him free ...
If he doesn't come back within a week
forget it.

The Statisticians :
If you love someone, Set him free,
If he loves you, the probability of him
coming back is high.
If he doesn't, your relation was
improbable anyway.

The Patient:
If you love someone, Set him free ...
If he doesn't come back put your life on
hold and sit and wait.

The Playful:
If you love someone, Set him free ...
If he comes back, and if you love him still,
set him free again, repeat*

The Human Ecologist:
If you love someone, Set him free,
In fact, all living creatures deserve to be free!!

Bill Gates:
If you love someone, Set him free,
If he comes back, I think we can charge
him for re-installation fees and
tell him that he's also going to get an upgrade.

The Biologist :
If you love someone, Set him free, He'll evolve.

The Schwarzenegger's fans:
If you love someone, Set him free,
HE'LL BE BACK!

The Overpossessive:
If you love someone,
don't set him free.

The FBI agent:
If you love someone, set him free.
Then put bug on his phone and
surveillance cameras in his house.

The Pathetic:
If you love someone, set him free.
Who wants to be stuck with a loser like
you anyway?

The Lawyer:
If you love someone, set him free.
Then sue him for emotional distress.

The Psycho:
If you love someone, set him free.
If he doesn't come back shoot him.

The Creepy Sociopath:
If you love someone, stalk him.

The C++ programmer:
IF
you love someone
THEN
set him free
END IT UNTIL he comes back

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

meaningful

1. Don’t go for looks, they can deceive. Don’t go for wealth even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile.

2. There are things you love to hear but you would never hear it from the person whom you would like to hear it from, but don’t be deaf to hear it from the person who says it with his heart.

3. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want
to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want in life.

4. May you have…Enough happiness to make you sweet..Enough trials to make you strong..Enough sorrow to keep you human..Enough hope to make you happy..And enough money to keep you comfortable.

5. When one door of happiness closes, another opens. But we often took so
long at the closed door, that we don’t see the one which has been opened for us.

6. The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch, swing with, never saying a word and then walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you’ve had.

7. It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it, but it’s
also true that we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives.

8. Always put yourself in other’s shoes. If you feel that it hurts you,
it probably does hurt the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle a strife; A cruel word may wreck a life;
A timely word may level stress; A lovely word may heal and bless.

10. The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves
and not to twist them with our own image, otherwise we love only the
reflection of ourselves we find in them.

11. The happiest people don’t necessarily have the best of
everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along the way.

12. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right
one so that when we finally meet the right person, we should know how to be
grateful for that gift.

13. It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone
and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

14. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have
searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the
importance of people who have touched their lives.

15. Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance and
find out you still care for that person.

16. A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot
to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you
just have to let go.

17. Love starts with a smile, develops with a kiss and ends with a tear.

18. Love comes to those who still hope even though they’ve been disappointed,
to those who still believe even though they’ve been betrayed, need to love
those who still love, even though they’ve been hurt before.

19. It hurts to love someone, and not to be loved in return but what is most
painful is to love someone and never finds the courage to let the person
know how you feel.

20. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You
can’t go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

21. Never say goodbye when you still want to try; Never give up when you
still feel you can take it; Never say you don’t love that person anymore
when you can’t let go.

22. Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they’ll love
you back. Don’t expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their
hearts but if it doesn’t, be content it grew in yours.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

after weeks of not being in the lab, i was so lost the moment i set foot in my research lab..my stuff were all unrecognizable and in fact some were used andkept the wrong way..i have a strange OCD towards sharing stuff..i wouldn't mind sharing unless a person keeps it neat n put things back the way it was before..but goin back to the lab and having everything all messed up til i can barely recognise my stuff really irks me..took me a day to clean up and prepare my things before i can start working on my project..well at least now i have more work space and equipments since my senior has completed his honours research =) as for my project, i'm stil waiting for my cloning kit and vectors..they said it would be here around early june and i'm stil waiting..stupid BIORAD!!! you and your agents !! i don't have that much time to wait anymore u big-time idiots..

pray that i can complete my project with decent results in time..else i'm not sure if there's such thing as deferring an honours project =.=

hmm..my right eye has been twitching occasionally today..scientifically, there are various causes to involuntary eye muscle spasm that leads to eye-twitching..Eye twitching is believed to be caused by an abnormal functioning of certain nerve areas located at the base of the brain which control the coordination of muscle movements. other common causes include stress + fatigue, irritation of the cornea/conjuntiva, nervous system disorder, lack of sleep and prolonged staring at tv/computer screen, excessive intake of caffeine..hmm..for me, i think it would be a combination of lack of sleep, prolonged staring at tv + comp screens, stress and fatigue, and excessive intake of caffeine..tho i remember a fren telling me that right eye twitching is bad for females..i don't remember how the superstition went so i googled it up..i was amused when i saw this forum post abt a person asking abt the superstition since his/her eye has been twitching for 2 weeks already, where someone replied and said "If your eye has been twitching for two weeks please see a doctor about it"..how can someone be more concern abt the superstition after 2 weeks of eye-twitching? it must be really irritating for it to twitch that long rite..but at the end of the day, i stil believe in the scientific explanation more =D



Eyelid Twitching Superstitions and Myths:
Millions of people suffer from eye twitching – in some it may be intermittent, brought on by a sudden increase of stress or sleeplessness. In others, it’s more pronounced and can interfere with day to day life. Regardless of which category a person falls into, there’s a goldmine of superstitions that revolve around eye twitching. In fact eye twitching ranks up there with itchy palms and hiccups as the most superstition prone condition! Each culture seems to have its own take on the deeper significance of eye twitching.In China for instance, where superstitions and myths frequently cross over into modern living, the chief superstition seems to be that a twitch in the right eye signifies good luck, maybe a major windfall. A twitch in the left eye? Not so good. It’s a bad omen; a sign of ill luck headed your way! The entire situation seems to turn around in the case of females; for them, a twitching left eye signifies good luck while a twitching right one is a strict no no! - I hope this is not true! Even among the Chinese, there seem to be as many superstitions regarding eye twitching as the sufferers themselves.There is even a superstition based on an anatomical break down of the eye. A twitch in the lower left eyelid means you can expect to cry soon while a corresponding one in the right eyelid means good fortune is headed your way. There’s yet another one that claims a twitching eyelid means someone is gossiping about you. I think it would be pretty cool to always good to know the exact moment when your enemies are bad mouthing you. In any case, all these mental calisthenics figuring out whether an eye twitch means you’re going to win the lottery or have the sky fall on your head, will probably give you enough stress to trigger off a whole new series of twitches!

Next to the Chinese, the Indians are the Olympic champions when it comes to superstitions. The commonly believed one here is just the opposite of the Chinese version. Here a twitching left eye is definitely a good omen, while a twitching right one is considered inauspicious. The Nigerians go with the Chinese version. Left eye – bad. Right eye – Good. Another superstition is a little more frightening than the above. It’s not clear where this one comes from, but according to it a twitching left eye means there’s soon going to be a death in the family. A twitching right one on the other hand means an impending birth.To the Hawaiians, an eye twitch can either mean the arrival of a stranger, or that you’re soon going to mourn for someone.In Cameroon and some other parts of Africa, a twitching lower eyelid means you will soon shed tears. As far as superstitions go, this one is quite scientific. Tears normally flow from the corner of the lower eyelid. Still on Africa, when the upper eyelid twitches, it’s a sure sign you’re going to meet someone you didn’t expect to see. This one’s also connected to anatomical science, it seems. Surprise and amazement are normally expressed in humans by the raising of the upper eyelids.

Source from: http://www.twitchingeyelids.com/

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

24 things i've learned

i found this while surfing around fb..somehow it makes alot of sense..tho i've editted some of it since some didnt really mean much and they were more like fillers..but i couldnt find the name of the author of this piece..so i sort of paraphrase it abit so that no one will accuse me of plagarism or copyright infringement..


I've learned that the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.
I've learned that when you're in love, it shows.
I've learned that it takes just a sentence of word said to me by just one person can make my day. I've learned that being kind is sometimes more important than being right.
I've learned that you should never say no to a gift from a child.
I've learned that sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.
I've learned that life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.
I've learned that we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.
I've learned that money doesn't buy class.
I've learned that it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.
I've learned that under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved. I've learned that God didn't do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?
I've learned that to ignore the facts does not change the facts.
I've learned that when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.
I've learned that love, not time, heals all wounds.
I've learned that the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.
I've learned that no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.
I've learned that opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.
I've learned that when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.
I've learned that one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.
I've learned that a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.
I've learned that I can't choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it.
I've learned that it is best to give advice in only two circumstances: when it is requested and when it is a life-threatening situation.
I've learned that the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.