This i dedicate to my friends..with all my heart..


Portrait of a friend:

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears.
But I can listen to you, and together we can seek answers.

I can't change your past with all its heartache and pain, nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine.
Yet I can share in your laughter and joy.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge.
I can only support you, encourage you, and help you when you ask.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you.
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow, room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting.
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.

how do kids intepret love

i came across something that caught my attention awhile ago..apparently, a group of professional people (i dunno what sort of professionals were they referring to..) posted a question to a group of 4-8 yr olds.."what does love mean?"..and some of the answers obtained were broader and deeper than anyone could imagine based on their age..
(those highlighted in red are my personal favourites..)


"Love is that first feeling you feel before all the bad stuff gets in the way."

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth."

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your french fries without making them give you any of theirs."

"Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings."

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My mommy and daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss."

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."

"Love is hugging. Love is kissing. Love is saying no."

"When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you're scared they won't love you anymore. But then you get surprised because not only do they still love you, they love you even more."

"There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them."

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."

"Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken."

"Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."

"I let my big sister pick on me because my mom says she only picks on me because she loves me. So I pick on my baby sister because I love her."

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."

"God could have said magic words to make the nails fall off the cross, but He didn't. That's love."

Grey's and white horsey

NOT a fan of Taylor Swift..but heard this song while i was watching Grey's anatomy some time ago..season 5 premier..touching scenes though..esp when they were showing these 3 women, one of them awfully familiar looking..probably seen her in some other movies and sitcoms before..but yeah..there they were in Seattle Grace in their pretty ball gowns after their driver got into an accident leaving one of them named Betty with some sort of concussion causing her to repeatedly asking the same questions again..while one of them, Sarah Beth, was there being helpless and worrying abt her husband who would need surgery but his insurance expires at midnight and his credit cards were all cancelled..her husband's financial situation was the 1st blow esp when she had no idea beforehand..the second devastation would be when Betty was diagnose with a permanent brain damage (reminded me of Finding Nemo's Dory having short term memory loss)..as if that wasn't bad enough, her best friend Anna admitted that she had an affair with SB's husband for about 8 months..if i was her, i would have just left that man to die by himself after all that he has done..bloody asshole..even tho for a moment it was touching when he begged for her forgiveness and said he loves her..but that was just for a split second..a man who can cheat on his wife certainly does not respect her nor love her..to me, it's the worse form of betrayal and therefore he should die a slow and painful death (a very very slow and painful one..) all alone after losing his wife and money..but somehow, she forgived both of them..this is something that i could NEVER do..and the theme song for this episode is somehow fitting to the plot (read the lyrics and you'll see)..




"white horse"
Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse,
to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

falling in love

"It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.”

Yes, that is so true.. Just think back of the times when you fell in love..all the throughts running thru your head..and your heart skipping a beat every time he smiles at you..or the mushy feeling whenever he stares into your eyes..The feeling of love that makes your heart feel like its going to burst..walking around in a daze..smiling to yourself..The list goes on and on but what matters is that most of us has experience it before.. A sweet happy feeling that makes life better each day..

Remember this and keep it to your heart.

"Love has its time, its own season, its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you."

~~ updates ~~

i've lost my ear ring..after only wearing it twice T___T lost my fave side somemore..wtf..re-traced my footsteps all around uni to find it..but failed..ended up being sooooo disappointed til i wanted to cry..maybe i shud just change the other side of the earring into a hp or bag accessory..

recently addicted to online shopping nowadays..particularly to accesories..charm bracelets + necklaces + earrings etc..but in a way..i'm too broke to afford even something cheap..

i shud really stop being lazy and complete my theses..promised my lecturer to hand it up for him to proofread 2 weeks ago..but been lazy til now >.<

i shud really find a part time job..so that i can start saving money for more shopping..this time..i need clothes..lots of them..those that i can wear daily..i shud stop buying clothes on impulse and not wear them after buying since they may not suit me or be practical to go anywhere casual such as uni and normal going out..sighssssssss..parents scolded me for throwing out clothes that i do not wear..dad doesn't want to pay for my shopping anymore..so i have to look for another source of income..right now..my bank account berlubang-lubang adi, but stil need to keep some money inside before i withdraw all and end up losing the account =(

am so freaking glad that adam lambert did not win AI..i hate that elvis look..hopefully we'll get to hear from danny gokey sometime soon..would definitely listen to his songs cuz i love his vocal..

heard that shogun's 50% lunch at 1u was very good..too bad i went to the one at pyramid and most of the food was finishing and they did not constantly "top-up" the food..and the food was not fresh..while the one at 1u had constant supply of FRESH sushi, prawns, soft shelled crab (my fave) etc..nooooooooo..why did i go to the sucky one >.<>.<
shud i just go and starve myself the next day and perhaps the next next day as well?????? how? how? how?


** reminder to self: download k-on and toradora..finish up my theses introduction section..stick to 1 & 1/2 meal per day and refrain from buying online things for now >.<

The easiest thing I ever done was fall in love with him..Finding the right person is not really a matter of finding..It is more of a surprise than a search because if you are looking for the "one" you may find more disapointment than love..So the lesson learnt would be to enjoy the ride and don't let your goal of being loved influence you to fall for the wrong pair of arms..Be patient and have fun..When its the right person you will know..Life is short and love is precious..Don't fall for anyone that will make you anything less than happy..Love someone that will improve your life..Always remember that love is kind and patient..even if it means waiting til the right moment appears..

love and pride

as usual, i was just surfing around the net and looking up meaningful poetry, life stories (fiction or based on real experiences) and opinions on certain topics..and today i managed to find something that i couldnt help but agree with every single word i read..therefore, it was a meaningful piece for me..this article that was published few weeks ago in star newspaper and yes i know..this shows that i don't read the papers as much as i shud be..i can't cite the author since the site did not reference it >.<..

SIGHTS & SOUNDS

OVER the past year, I have learned a thing or two about love. I find the power of love fascinating and contradictory at the same time. Besides being able to turn a perfectly normal person into a giddy, beaming creature; love also has the power to unhinge the most rational of us. If you’ve ever been in love, you might agree that love can make us a little insane at times. An intelligent, successful person would cry, beg and flood their partner’s mailbox with a dozen incoherent messages, all because of love. In the face of love, any pride that we might have gets flushed down the drain.

There also are instances where the opposite is true.

I find that love and pride are so closely intertwined that the mere movement towards one or the other can change the outcome of a disagreement between couples.

Anger and pride are also never far from each other. It is anger that spurs us to make the most hurtful remarks and it is pride that stills our tongue when we want to say we’re sorry. Anger makes us forget ourselves and gives us a temporary sense of power. We say things we don’t mean and when we want to run after the one we love, it is our pride that keeps us rooted to the ground.

No one is perfect and it is our battle with pride and anger that makes up human love. We either allow anger and pride to take over or we can try very hard to let love do the talking. After all, pride, anger and regret will not keep us warm at night.

Love is also a very strange notion. We can promise our partner the earth and the sky, whisk them away on luxurious holidays and feel happier when we hear their voice on the telephone; yet we can be rude to them, careless with their feelings and take them for granted.

You wouldn’t put as much effort into a friendship and you also wouldn’t abuse it; yet when it comes to relationships, you could be operating on both ends of the scale at the same time. It doesn’t take one long to figure out that we are at our most vulnerable when we are in love. Even the strongest and meanest have been known to be defeated by it.

Love may have the power to heal, but it also certainly has the power to break someone and turn them into a shadow of their former self. I have found that showing our love is not just giving what comes naturally to us when we are happy. It is always easy to love someone when we’re in a good mood but when things aren’t so peachy it can be such a struggle to remember how to show that love.

Although I am a naturally affectionate person, I find myself behaving more like Mr Hyde than Dr Jekyll when angry or upset; ashamed as I am to admit. “Never make a decision when you’re angry” is a motto that I’m glad my boyfriend practices and has constantly reminded me to stand by.

Falling in love is easy but no one seems to advertise the fact that it isn’t as simple to sustain that wondrous feeling. The thing is, we can have the best education from the most prestigious university, but when it comes to the matters of the heart, we have no way of preparing for it. There is no other way to understand love than to learn about it the hard way and hope that our heart, and the hearts of those who love us, survives the ride.

I don’t find Valentine’s Day overrated as I see it as an anniversary of love.

After an entire year of learning about love and being a better person because of it, wouldn’t you want to celebrate too?

online shopping for accessories..

visited the kyo-fashion blog and ended up getting myself a necklace n 2 pairs of ear rings..it started of with carolyn asking if anyone wanted to share a purchase with her since she intended to get a necklace while the online blog was promoting any 2 necklace for rm20..so i've decided to get myself one since i seem to be losing all my necklaces..no idea where they all are disappearing to >.<" it was hard to decide between a few necklaces with completely different styles n all..but eventually i've decided to get this particular design..simple n cute, no? and then there was the colour dilema..



choice 1:





and...



choice 2:






..and so..in the end..after pacing back n forth and thinking for a few minutes..i've decided on the choice #2..since it seems to stand out more between the two cuz of the colour..and i've rarely have anything turquoise for the matter..and also..sides..this colour looks nice on the milano glass beads..compare between the closed up of both colors, the gray one seem a little "cheap" and painted on, while the turquoise one looks better in quality no?


hopefully the necklace will be as nice as it looks when it arrives =) better not be that type where pictures-are-for-illustrative-purposes sort of deceiving tactics..


then..as usual..once i get started..it would just lead to more shopping..started looking at ear rings..and saw the offer "any 2 for rm10"..straightaway picking what i like and decide on which two to choose from..started out with 4 choices..






choice #1:








choice #2:






choice #3:








choice #4:




i did not have a hard time choosing my must-have-choice-number-one..and it was choice#1 !!
the second one..i had to decide btwn the remaining 3 likings..somehow, i noticed that i tend to like things with simple and plain design..for a few minutes, i've decided on choice #2..then after thinking somemore, ended up with choice #3 cuz i liked the butterfly..then..a few min later..mum passed by and saw what i was doing..so she started looking as well..ended up choosing the choice #4 since she says it's simple and classy..but since mum suggested..so fine lor..be a good girl n listen to mummy..so choice #4 it is..

fairytales

When I was young, I used to dream of happily ever after..I loved watching all the fairytale movies, where a handsome dashing prince comes and sweep the lovely princess of her feet, they fall in love and lived happily ever after..Such magical words and their effect on us girls… And I wish… and wish…

Now that I’m much older (way too old for fairytales..), all grown up and world-wise (or so i like to think!)..I find that fairytales are just fairytales. Happily ever after does not happen in reality..if there was a movie abt fairytales, it would probably show that their happily ever after is short-lived..Life throws things at us when we are just not prepared for it..Things do not happen the way we want it to be..All the hopes and dreams of a young innocent girl were dashed away by the reality of the world..Look all around and you know what I mean…

And yet again, as I grow a little bit older..I realized something..We are who we are because of whom we make ourselves to be..Life can throw things at us, problems may arise, and times can get difficult. But then, you and you alone can determine what happens after that..You make your decision, you choose your path, you create your future..And when you do, your hopes and dreams might come true if u've made the right choices..and perhaps you’ll live "happily ever after"..

All because you CHOOSE to..