exhausting week..

Finally stopped working today..Today was supposed to be my last day at work, but i got lazy and called in to say i could not go due to some reasons..So i guess yesterday was my last day at work..it's really tiring to work and study at the same time..over the past 2 weeks, i've been waking up so early and reach the lab by 7 sth a.m...then i would spend few hours to be done with some part of the experiment..one of the reasons that i had to go super early was because of my bacteria culture that requires around 16-18 hours of incubation but not more than 20 hours..else i'd be working with dead bacteria and fail the experiment..Reason #2 would be because i find being in lab that early in the morn is actually quite peaceful..and esp having the whole lab for myself with no seniors around to watch me if i did something wrong is seriously a big relief..i'm quite a klutz i would admit..but thank goodness i haven't broken anything yet..or for the matter, blow something up..*touch wood*..as well as having all the equipments for myself without the need to compromise with seniors on who's using what at when..so basically i can do things at my pace and without distractions..and i could listen to songs on the lab desktop while i'm working in the lab..Reason #3 would be because i have to work in the afternoon and that's why i have to complete everything asap by latest 1 or 2 pm since my work starts around 2pm..and it's quite some distance to travel from Sunway to TTDI..esp when there would be some slight traffic jam during lunch hour..or worse, when a stupid little accident would just jam up the whole LDP..it's extremely frustrating when it happens..so i guess working part time n studying would be really taxing and it's not worth the small amount of money i get since transportation would cost quite alot as well..that's why i'm really glad to stop work..i kinda enjoy honours year since lab work is more fun than plain memorising facts as we did for exam in the previous undergraduate program..i hate the Aussie system where we have to take honours separately from the 3 years of undergraduate studies..it's sucking up my money and time..plus the project topics are way more complicated than those students doin during their undergraduate studies and graduate with honours..while i graduate with a general degree and have to waste 1 year for honours program in my uni..it's very unfair isn't it?

so far i'm only at the beginning stages for the whole honours year project..and my friends and seniors are putting pressure on me by telling me abt how the experiment topics by my lecturer always end up in failure..sigh..i really don't want to spend a whole year working on the project and end up failing..the bad thing abt my topic would be such that i would only be able to see the results after half a yr perhaps..depends on when i can finish my experiment..and if it fails, i would have to restart the entire project again..and it scares me alot since i have to start arranging my stuff and details for my theses..the theses has a 100 page limit..which, in a way doesnt seem too bad..but the past that got me depressed was when my seniors told me that their introduction part is ~30 pages long..how the heck am i gonna do an introduction to the project that long? it would be reasonable if it was ~10 pages, while they allocate the rest for the methodology & results & discussion sections..cuz those parts would contain every detail abt the project throughout the year..

my 1st DNA extraction failed..which was really disappointing at that time..so i had to do a 2nd DNA extraction, this time with better parameters and careful handling..and tada..way way better results than the 1st ^o^ but then today, i stupidly dropped the vial holding my samples as i took them out from the fridge..tho they seem fine but i hope my DNAs did not shear..stupid stupid stupid dumb klutz..ugh..really pissed at myself..my hard work might be compromised just because of that >.<

right now i have to design forward and reverse primers for PCR..another headache as well given that i really really suck at bioinformatics..working with all these softwares and things related to technology really isn't my forte..worse still with the current streamyx problems mentioned in the newspapers yesterday..which caused the line to be really slow..guess i'll have to do it in uni on monday morn since the connection is way faster over there..not like i have a sucky cpu at home or anything, but it's streamyx fault..while typing thise, i'm actually waiting for the darn software to load since 2 hours ago before i started blogging on this post..guess i'm gonna go sleep since it's abt 3 am now and there's no point waiting longer than i already did..