lost..

Over the past week, i've been feeling so trapped and lost at the same time..am wondering why do i keep remembering some things that still bothers me alot..and why do i keep reading thru those words that could make me feel sad and afraid..why does that person keeps saying things to raise doutbs in me and refuse to leave me alone..being mentally stressed is way more tiring than being physically tired from work..and i hate that painful feeling i get inside me that makes it hard for me to breathe..so i guess i have to ask myself: what do i want and is it worth it? seems like a simple question but it's not easy to think abt it..but i guess the answer lies somewhere in me subconciously and i would have to search for it..i just hope i can find it before it gets too suffocating..