i liked the way i was before

i want to be the person i used to be some time ago before things changed me..capable of loving, trusting and being happy..capable of being independent and self-sufficient..and perhaps being able to care at an appropriate point..i liked who i was at that time..the current me seems a little hard to handle and tired of everything around me..the current me needs to stop being insecure and vulnerable..i have to learn to take things as they are and return a reciprocal treatment or response..the current me needs to be smarter in dealing with situations..etc etc etc..i'm in need of a change in my life and it shall start with changing who i am..i want to be the girl i used to be and the girl i used to like being..although she might be distant and cold, but being that way helps me take care of myself emotionally..growing older by a year and after going through rough patches from time to time shud make me a tougher person both on the inside and the outside, and be more mature at my age..i hope..